Five; Just a stack of waffles

 

Hello, as promised I am back to do a proper blog this time (yes I am a day later than I said I would but who's counting) 

The title of this blog is what it is because its come to that time when I'm seriously thinking about the essay, I have written my plan in a bullet proof format and my next stage will be writing it into an academic essay. However I have been told many times in the past that I tend to waffle, and while I prefer to see it less as waffle and more as a beautifully descriptive exploration, I understand that our 2500 word essay brief will not. this leads me into my next point of HOW WILL I FIT IN EVERYTHING I WANT TO TALK ABOUT ?? but then in my tutoring session this morning Pedro kindly reminded me that there is no word limit for our blogs, therefore my conclusion is that as I start my essay writing and editing process I will come to the blogs to write about all the other things I know I may not be able to include in the final essay. 

Today my plan for this blog is to write down a few quotes that stuck with me from one of the books I've been reading, and why they feel useful for my practice. I will also summarise some of what happened in my most recent one to one as well as group class, I understand that anyone who is reading this who is not me may find that part of my blog very uninteresting as it is personal to my own project but first and foremost this blog is for me so that's what I'm going to be doing. 

first the quotes as that's probably more interesting to anyone reading this: 

"Even if we look like functioning artists to the world, we feel we never do enough and what we do isn't right. we are victims of our own internalised perfectionist" - The Artists Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity, by Julia Cameron 

This quote felt very truthful to me. the whole section of this book leans towards this idea, and how our own mind gets in the way of creativity so much because of our 'inner critic', we will never think we are good enough. this quote, while speaking to me personally, is relevant for one of my areas of learning. I will be using this book a lot when it comes to talking about pressure and confidence in the audition room and as a performer. this also leans nicely into the idea of writers block as a lyricist, which is a another topic close to me. 

"the events in our live happen in a sequence in time, but in their significance to ourselves, they find their own order...the continuous thread of revelation" - Eudora Welty (referenced in The Artists Way) 

This quote is a little more vague to me but I can still very much find the truth in it. I know that each event I have experienced has caused me to feel a particular way, thus leading me to take certain actions that have changed my path. I may not know it at the time or may fully understand the relevance of it but either way it is all part of my journey and will be part of my reflection when the time comes. the relevance to this in my essay? I have realised, when trying to connect my topics, that each 'thing I have learned' in my essay has only happened because of another 'thing I have learned'. for example if I had not overcome confidence and pressure at drama school I wouldn't have volunteered to write a musical, therefore wouldn't have learned how much I love to write music. likewise I wouldn't have been inspired to write so many songs in New York if I hadn't unlocked my songwriting journey. it all feeds into each other and I feel this quote encapsulated that. 

"at the height of laughter, the universe is flung into a kaleidoscope of new possibilities" - Jean Houston (referenced in The Artists Way) 

I LOVE this quote for many reasons. I believe that all great creativity comes from either immense joy or immense pain (or any emotion that is string enough to be honest). I am also a firm believer that everything is better when you can find the laughter in it, where would humanity be if we couldn't find joy and laughter. but I also think that the reference of the kaleidoscope of possibilities is beautiful as that's exactly how I see the world when I feel inspired. now ignoring my own personal bias to this quote it has relevance in my essay as this is the exact feeling I I had when I was in New York, the whole experience felt like a never ending opportunity filled with learning and laughter and friendship. 

I am now realising that this title really does rain true and I will have to finish this blog on another page... for now that's my quotes see you tomorrow for part two of what I planned to talk about, 

TD